Is this a mere dream or a going-to-be achievable dream?

Sometimes I just wonder if I can really be a lawyer??

This question has been questioning around my mind all these time. Am I forcing myself too hard when my ability is not there?

I work so hard these days but it seems like there is no improvement. W-H-Y?

Am I not intelligent than others? or Am I not learning as hard as others do?

For myself, I think...Yes, I might not be as smart/intelligent as others. But, at least I tried my best to do everything I can. I studied so hard in my high school and university, all I want is just to achieve my dream.

I'm extremely pressures now. And obviously I'm under stress. What should I do?

Boss asked me today: "Why are you keeping yourself quiet everytime when I know you know the answer? What makes you so not confident bout yourself and what makes you scare about?"

Me: "Still keep silent...."

And I'm trying to find out all these answer till now. He wakes me up from facing all these.

I scared about I'm wrong. I'm scare to know that I'm not capable enough.

Please God, stop fooling me around. Tell me straight away what should I do and what I should not. And am I really able to be a lawyer. Show me the way pleaseeeee.

I'm tired to be like this.

Really having hard feelings right now but nothing much I can do.

Just keep for myself and show a big smile in front of everyone. Pretend to be strong =(

No tears are allowed tonight, KaiYien!

Is my dream to be a lawyer mere a dream or is going to be in real one day? *heartache*

I feel like giving up.